Why is it when you have a good thing going for yourself, theres always that one person who tries to bring you down? More importantly why do people actually believe what they say about someone is truth? This is why I don't like drama! People say what they want to say without thinking about who they are hurting? Has our human rsce finally gotten to the point were nothing matters anymore. I don't know for some reasons I lost my way of writing... I feel lost without my words meaning anything. Maybe its because for once in my life I am truely happy... and no one can take that away from me. I'm just wrting to write right now... Outta bordom... You know what I really hate... My thoughts come to me at night when I am about to go to sleep... Pretty soon Imma sleep with a notebook and flashlight with a pen connected to it... Just so I can save my thoughts from an isolated place... well right now I have no more to wanna talk about...

"We are not enemies, but friends.We must not be enemies. Though passion may have strength, it must not break our bonds of effection."

-American History X

 

When we focus negitive energy on one person, someone that we "hate", we become that person. And we also become that persons enemy instead of the other way around... Life is too short to be mad all the time, to be angry all the time, everyone talks about world peace but how can world peace exist when everyone has an enemy? Think about a person that has become your enemy... Isn't it time to let them go of their crime and love one another?

Marc and I out with Adrianna and Crystal... playing pool. Fun times

This Is Me. For all you people who don't know me and are looking at my page for the first time, and for everyone who does know me but not the real me....

I am weak and unable, but strong and level headed.

I am shy, but out spoken.

I am hated, but loved.

I am confused, but know what I want from life.

I am religious, but rebellious.

I am friendly, but jealous.

I hate and love at the same time.,

Sometimes I say the wrong thing and offend othere people.

I was cheated on, I did the cheating, I was the misstress...

I've been addictied, I've been abusing, alchole and drugs...Not worth it

I am not a poser... I am not a thief... I am not a lier...

I am not someone who molds easily into others...

I am not perfect... and I wouldn't have it anyother way.

I am a pacifist... But also a fighter....

I am scarcastic and witty.... I don't know when to shut up

I like to be in the center of attention, because I never was...

I was made fun of while growing up... I have low self essteem, but I chose not to let others know.

I hated myself for years with out realizing why.

Sometimes I get so depressed I just want to quit

At life, at work, at friends, family, and relationships

But this is who I am... I don't know the reasoning behind

my depression but its there in the back of my mind

it fills my heart daily, but I overcome it somehow.

But nobody knows. But now everyone knows.

I am in a comfortable place in my life now.

I hated others because they had more then me

I became superfacial to supress the pain...

And that in turn made me hate myself more.

I ruined good friendships because of my being superfacial..

I had all my friends turn against me once, I was all  alone,

I got arrested, I was on probation, I did community service.

I hung out with the wrong crowd, I did some unimaginable

things in my life. But I would not change my life for the world...

My life is a rollercoaster... Theres the up, the downs and the

breaks... But this is who I am... No one else formed me...

If anything they feed my curiosity and left me alittle different.

I am ME

You want to know me this is who I am